The Lovers, the Dreamers, and Me

And then God brings everything back around and reminds me that...

Tue, 21 May 2013 19:27:50 -0700

And then God brings everything back around and reminds me that He is taking care of me and reminding me that all things work together for good (Romans 8:28). He’s the best and always will be.

Stuff stuff stuff. Drama drama drama I didn’t think I’d put this up, but I need to vent...

Tue, 21 May 2013 01:57:11 -0700

Stuff stuff stuff. Drama drama drama

I didn’t think I’d put this up, but I need to vent a little. I need my fellow siblings in Christ to lift me up now

So God has brought a very important person into my life. He is my dad’s age, and I have become the best of friends with him, and lovingly call him papa now because he has become such a darling father figure to me. His wife I lovingly call mama as well.

But we’ve already run into problems.

He is a very affectionate man, but not with ulterior motives. His hugs are wonderful and endearing, and he has held me for a long while when I was going through some rough scrapes. We are open and honest with each other, and we are also keeping each other accountable considering we are both Christians as well.

But that hasn’t stopped people from showing concern for the fact that I enjoy hanging out with him - we go for walks, we’ve gone hiking, he’s taken me on drives to help me practice, etc. Stuff that friends do, right? Stuff that family does together! I have never felt more safe than when I’m with him. We can be ourselves and we cut up, laugh, tease, talk, cry, and pray - lots of times all in one day!

And yet people are still talking, still wondering, still worrying…and it’s driving me nuts. Even his wife, “mama,” has expressed that she cares about and trusts me, but yet doesn’t seem to trust him. Well then what’s the point of trusting me? And why the heck is no one coming to me with these “concerns”? Instead, the few who’ve talked have talked either to him or to my parents. WHY. NOT. ME. I’m part of this too. I’m an adult. I walked into this with both eyes open and myself prepared. And I’m glad I didn’t discard it. It’s one of the best friend and mentorships I’ve ever had.

My prayer request is for God to open eyes and calm hearts - bring understanding to those who are jumping to conclusions and saying things like “we trust you both but it doesn’t look quite proper.” It didn’t look proper for Jesus to hang out with Samaritans either, but that didn’t stop Him.

I have been praying about this since day one, and I haven’t had a check in my heart about any of it. God lets us know when things are wrong, and He has been good to both papa and I so far.

Just pray for us and that the Lord will provide his grace and peace on all of those involved.

Thanks so much, guys. Your prayers bless me and this little mess.

So I made something today. And she was very fun to create. Any...

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:35:22 -0700

So I made something today. And she was very fun to create. Any ideas for a name?

If you haven’t seen this movie, then you’re missing...

Fri, 17 May 2013 22:33:24 -0700

If you haven’t seen this movie, then you’re missing out on one of the greatest love stories in cinema history. Definitely right up there with “Princess Bride.”

In a spoiler-free nutshell, a betrothed couple are cursed by a wicked bishop to be “always together, eternally apart” - one a hawk by day, and the other a wolf by night. And yet a character points out that the irony of it all is that both wolves and hawks mate for life.

A very young Matthew Broderick plays the somewhat comedic relief role of a young thief who gets mixed up in the whole ordeal, and his consistent talks with God throughout the film are great. The only downside to the film: the soundtrack. A film set in historically-fictional medieval France with knights on horseback? Oh yeah, bring on the synthesizer and 80’s rock. Wat.

Looking beyond that one painful aspect, this film is absolutely wonderful. So many poignant moments and memorable quotes, and one of my favorite parts is towards the end when the lady confronts the bishop. Talk about an empowering scene!

If you’re like me and have an everlasting love for older movies, then this one is right up your alley. I wish more people knew about it and enjoyed it as much as I do - I need more people to fangirl with me about how awesome of a movie it is! If you end up watching it, or are a crazy fan of it like me, shoot me a message and we can geek about it!

I’ve never dated, and never had romance. But I know what...

Wed, 15 May 2013 19:42:04 -0700

I’ve never dated, and never had romance. But I know what love is, and I know what it means to love a person without compromising beliefs and standards.

But by way of physical attraction to a guy, I find myself drawn to only a few minor things: hair, eyes, the smile, and hands.

I’ve always love studying hands, especially those of the men in my life - my grandfathers, my dad, my Uncle Ben, my “papa” James, even some of the guy friends I’ve had over the years. A man’s hands are a symbol of strength, and to wax poetic, I love to draw on that strength that I see in the hands of those men who protect and love me. There is hard work and even a masculine ferocity in those hands that can’t rightly be explained; those hands can build or break things without hesitation, and yet be gentle enough to take my hand while escorting me or envelop me in a hug. Some of the hands are scarred, some are wrinkled and rough, some are brown from the sun and freckled.

But they are all the same in this aspect: they symbolize a strength I need and have been blessed to have in my life. That strength has lifted me out of many frustrating times, and I’d be lost without the fierce but gentle touch of those mighty hands and the mighty men connected to them.

THIS is what I try to explain to people who aren’t...

Mon, 13 May 2013 09:41:03 -0700

THIS is what I try to explain to people who aren’t artists, who don’t get the idea of the joy of making something for someone. THIS is what it means to feel fulfilled in creating something for someone and seeing the happiness in their eyes and smile when I give it to them. THIS is what it means when you feel like you’ve given a piece of yourself away when you give away something you’ve made. And when people don’t show a sense of appreciation, or take the gift for granted somehow, or really don’t care all that much about it after all, that’s when you, the artist, feel like that piece of yourself - that bit of your soul, your mind, your heart, passion, love, your blood even - is now missing.

Take time to give thorough appreciation for artwork that is given to you, especially if it’s given as a gift. Look closely at the details, and if you’re not sure where to look, ask. I can tell you right now that the artist - no matter how modest - will be happy to explain some of the finer details that went into the piece. That appreciation, that time spent understanding the art that now belongs to you, can sometimes mean more to an artist than any other form of payment.

My little doofus.

Fri, 10 May 2013 11:42:19 -0700

My little doofus.

heffydoodle: snaggle-teeth: Ray Harryhausen (6/29/20- 5/7/13)...

Tue, 07 May 2013 21:45:06 -0700

heffydoodle:

snaggle-teeth:

Ray Harryhausen (6/29/20- 5/7/13) , a true legend of special effects in cinema. He will be missed.

Films featured in this set are:

Mighty Joe Young (1949), Beast of 20,000 Fathoms (1953), The 7th Voyage of Sinbad (1958), Jason and the Argonauts (1963), One Million Years B.C. (1967), Valley of Gwangi (1969), The Golden Voyage of SInbad (1974), Clash of the Titans (1981)

THE MAN.

These are some of my favorite movies of all time, particularly “The Golden Voyage of Sinbad” - Ray has always been an artistic inspiration for me. The grandfather of special effects will be sorely, sorely missed.

Waiting for my bestie/cousin to get in from her flight, and I start perusing the land of...

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:21:15 -0700

Waiting for my bestie/cousin to get in from her flight, and I start perusing the land of Tumblr.

Guys.

There is a new terror in my life, and it is called the Gelada Baboon.

Inspiration at its finest. *rests chin in hands with a dreamy...

Wed, 01 May 2013 22:52:41 -0700

Inspiration at its finest. *rests chin in hands with a dreamy expression*

Got me a new dress.

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 13:35:41 -0700

Got me a new dress.

You know what’s awesome? Rides on Harley motorcycles with a best friend on gorgeous, cloudless...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 18:22:24 -0700

You know what’s awesome? Rides on Harley motorcycles with a best friend on gorgeous, cloudless days in the country.

Especially when they speed up on downhill runs :D

This. This is my dream space. The table and chair are by a...

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 22:50:35 -0700

This. This is my dream space.

The table and chair are by a window that will always have sunshine coming in through it. The rug on the floor would probably be more of a multicolored woven number. There would be little LED lights all over the place, so when it gets dark, it’ll look like stars, or fireflies.

The loft would be my bedroom, and I’d have my bed right beside that huge round window to let the glorious morning sunshine warm me and also let me study the night sky.

I’d sit on the edge of the loft and dangle my legs while reading a book. I’d switch out the rocker with a hammock chair, and put the rocker down on ground level near an overstuffed bookshelf.

There’d definitely be a fireplace, with a bar to pull in and out so I could cook things in a cast iron pot or boil water for tea. There’d be a fluffy llama skin rug before the fireplace, and plenty of comfy chairs and a sofa nearby as well. I’d have a closet stuffed with thick, warm blankets and comfortable pillows. And there would be a huge window somewhere that overlooked the countryside, and would give the best view of the sunrises and sunsets day to day.

I’d be far enough in the country to not be annoyed by the hustle and bustle of the city, but close enough to the city to drive in and buy what I needed. There’d be a creek out back to listen to and play in, and a huge tree with a comfortable swing and a perfect space in the branches to sit and think or read.

Cool idea, huh?

nobodybetterhavethisoneoriswear: rockerfox999: ladykalliste: C...

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 07:31:35 -0700

nobodybetterhavethisoneoriswear:

rockerfox999:

ladykalliste:

CARGO - A zombie-bitten father tries to save his infant daughter

This is an amazing short film I found on YouTube. Watch it, you won’t be disappointed.

I…just…tears.

Genius. Pure brilliancy.

spiritualinspiration: The LORD merely spoke, and the heavens...

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 08:26:34 -0700

spiritualinspiration:

The LORD merely spoke, and the heavens were created. He breathed the word, and all the stars were born. (Psalm 33:6)

I’ve never looked at it that way before, but I will from now on. What a beautiful, beautiful concept…and I am honored to have such a title.

Photo

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 06:02:42 -0700

So I went for a wonderful brisk walk and watched a gorgeous sunset as I did. Then as I’m...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 20:29:26 -0700

So I went for a wonderful brisk walk and watched a gorgeous sunset as I did. Then as I’m heading down my street, a neighbor was crossing the opposite way with her two daughters, a 3 year old and a toddler. Now, I’m going along at a good clip, wearing a black hoodie (hood up), sweats, and a scarf to keep my hair back. The little 3-year old looks up as she’s skipping along, sees me, and calls out in an unafraid voice, “Look mommy, an old man!”

If I can be even a QUARTER as clever-sassy as Miss Marple (played by Geraldine McEwan) when...

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 22:52:19 -0700

If I can be even a QUARTER as clever-sassy as Miss Marple (played by Geraldine McEwan) when I’m an old biddy, I shall be very happy.

spiritualinspiration: In our culture today, people are used to...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 12:30:40 -0700

spiritualinspiration:

In our culture today, people are used to getting things right away. We’ve been programmed for immediacy. People don’t like to wait. But the scripture says, “It’s through faith and patience that we inherit God’s promises.” Sometimes, it’s easy for people to have faith. We declare, “God, I believe I’m going to accomplish my dreams. God, I believe I’m going to overcome this obstacle.” But, it gets harder when we have to walk in patience. When you pray, can you say, “God, I not only believe for big things, but I trust Your timing. God, I’m not going to get discouraged if it doesn’t happen immediately. I’m not going to give up because it’s taken a week, a month or five years. I know the set time is already in my future, so I’m going to wait with faith and patience because I know that it’s on the way.”

Remember, through faith and patience we inherit His promises. Trust His Word, trust His timing and trust that your answer is on its way!

This was the spiritual face-patting that I needed today. I’m struggling with getting my driver’s license, and it seems like I either don’t have the time or I end up failing at it. My goal is to have it before I move down to CA, so your prayers to keep me encouraged about it and to strive for God’s timing will be very appreciated.

Shirley Temple this time…

Sat, 06 Apr 2013 16:49:05 -0700

Shirley Temple this time…