OK, all you lovely people who follow me (and those of you who don’t but who are reading this), I have a prayer request, and it’s for me. I do my best to not be angsty or selfish in my prayer life, but as you kids well know, sometimes you need to ask for a little more attention from the Lord. And He knows that we do need it now and then.
So here’s the scoop: I don’t have my driver’s license yet. That’s the only thing keeping me from driving on the road; I’ve had my permit before, so actual driving isn’t the problem here. The big thing that scares me is the initial written test.
I’m a perfectionist, and it shines through in a good 90% of what I do in life. In saying that, testing comes as a major frustration for me because I ALWAYS 2nd guess myself, and that’s what costs me in the long run. When I fail on a test, it hits me hard - I feel like the biggest idiot and I get very discouraged. And I don’t want that to happen this time. I don’t want to fail, and keep failing and so get discouraged from taking it ever again. I don’t want to constantly have to rely on others to get from point A to point B. I want to make this further step of independence. I want to succeed.
So I’m asking you, Tumblrites, to pray for me. Pray that this is truly God’s timing, and that means it’s my time. Pray that God will give me wisdom, courage, and peace as I go to do this. Pray that He will open the doors to His mercy and shower me with it in the written and driving tests. Pray that He will banish the fear of the unknown, the what-if’s, and the hesitation. But most importantly, pray that His will shall be done regardless - let my reactions and attitude be a light and testimony to those around me, no matter what the outcome.
Phew, ok. Burden unloaded. Thanks for taking the time to read it!